The days

Jumpstart

If there is one way of describing myself, the workings of an internal combusion engine probably suits me just fine. Feels like my pistons have ran out of timing and clashed. The result, an engine that has ran out of steam.
But fret not. I am not a gonner. This is just a temporary state of stasis.I don't even have to believe in it because I just know it. Soon, I will be all fired up again and running 220kph at gear 5. I must admit that I am truly grateful for having friends around me, who are sending seemingly meaningless msn pop-ups to my computer screen. Their words are cheerful and energetic, with a tincture of male naughtiness. They remind me who I am: their friend Kelvin. Someone who claims he is as constant as the northern light. The one who always knows what is best and whats not. The one who sometimes decides swiftly, and sometimes waste hours poundering over solutions. They remind me that I take pride in my social standing and view myself as the alpha. Who cares about what others think. At this very moment, I can feel my ego taking form again, like the foam on top of a glass oh Heineken. Arh... Beer. Man's best friend?
There is no cause for worries. I am not drowning myself in sorrow. Beer is just a celebration of life. I choose to think of it as the hallmark of the carpe diem mentality. There is no solution at the bottom of that beer mug, just a moment of happiness. Thats enough, even if you neglect the vitamin B, the alcohol which promotes blood circulation and the carbohydrates that helps recover a sense of general well-being.
The time is up. For 4 days, I have been in a dazy state of disillusion. Now its time to spring back into life. Someone once said I am mean to even myself, setting a time limit to my feelings. I maintain that it is actually better this way. Life goes on, and with the new year only 26 hours away, its time for new year's resolution.

1. Forget the fact that I am turning 20 and believe that I am still 18.
2.Begin learning my 4th language. Arabic was my third though I didn't excel in it.
3.Achieve a respectable social standing in my new school.
4.Visit Tibet
5.Double my net worth.
6.Be happy.
7. Bring happiness to the one angel in my life.

What is it that I have never achieved before? Except the BMW at 18.Damn I want a BMW... Boys are boys. Toys, girls,...toys.

posted by zente @ 6:02 AM